Monday, 25 June 2012


Hi guys, Bless you all for your comments and kindness, they keep me going! They let me out today...I was so happy! Chris and Aiden get here tonight, and i think its just the medicine needed. I have missed my little boy so much, not to mention my half orange! I have a ton of medications, especially for the nausea, and have some inyections I will need to have for a couple more weeks as well. I dont know that I can describe how it feels... I cant really move the way I am used to, and my head is in a bit of a fog. Have different things to try and keep the pain under control... But yes my emotions have been all over the place. Thank you for the comments, cards, words of strenght and kindness...they help so much, especially during those really low days. I cant express how amazing my family has been, or how blessed I feel. I know that in a couple of months I will have to undergo chemo, but at the moment I cant stop thanking g-d for guiding dr. Temples hand; currently the cancer is out of my body, and hopefully after chemo it will remain so. I cant think too far ahead; for now i have to focus in learning to eat again, battle the nausea and slowly strengthen my body, day by day. Tonight I will see my guys, the best medicine ever....!!!

Saturday, 23 June 2012

Cry if I want to

It's my recovery.... and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to
Cry if I want to

It had been 2 days since I had seen Apis as I got a cold and was advised by the nurses to take 2 days off from seeing her. My sister Valerie and my Mom had been doing the hospital shifts and they had been taking great care of her.  I had missed her and was happy to see her again. Her nausea had continued but the vomiting had stopped (for the most part) and her trips to the bathroom were less frequent. She still did not feel great but was a bit better.  She continued to be on the anti-nausea medication and also started anti-heartburn medication which made a big difference!

She had very little appetite and we were starting to wonder if it (also) had something to do with the hospital food. How can someone recovering from such a harsh surgery be expected to eat lentils and corn? Or a tuna salad sandwich that tasted like miracle whip? Or chocolate cookies that would make anybody bloated? Mom decided to start bringing in homemade food for her and she has been noticing the difference... she is eating again... small amounts but consistently in the last 24 hours. Her energy level has slowly been improving as well and she has been walking around today which was a big change from yesterday when my mom took her around on a wheelchair as she was too weak to go walking anywhere but was feeling restless.

She has been emotional and sad at times which is completely understandable. And we worry about it... obviously...  I saw her shed a few tears in the morning as she was struggling to eat her breakfast. She was afraid to push herself to eat and get sick again/start vomiting. It broke my heart and it worried me - how can I stop her from crying? Should I worry about her becoming depressed? Then it hit me.... It's HER recovery.... and SHE will cry if SHE wants to (or NEEDS TO).  Why is it that we don’t often allow ourselves to feel and to acknowledge that we are going through a difficult time? Or that we are struggling? Isn’t that a better alternative than the “serenity now... insanity later” motto that forces us to suppress our feelings? We should be happy that she is expressing those feelings and dealing with them in a healthy way.

And so, I let her cry. And then we hugged. And soon after she ate her breakfast and even drank all her Boost meal supplement. Then I snuck off to the washroom and had a good cry myself...

Friday, 22 June 2012


Per·se·ver·ance is defined as steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., especially in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement. There is no doubt that Apis’ ability to persevere is really astounding, especially as she continues to face obstacles each day.

Yesterday was yet another difficult day. Her nutritional supplement was removed and both her antibiotic and pain medication continued to be given orally.  She was not able to take any anti-nausea medication other than gravol as the doctors wanted to see if it would stay under control – it didn’t.  Most of the nausea comes from the chemotherapy drugs which were injected right into her system... and which are hard for the body to process. It seems that very few medications are able to control it or minimize its effects.

She spent most of the day vomiting, with stomach pain and crazy bowel movements.  Still, she got up and continued with her walks, the breathing exercises and trying to eat as much as she could (every spoonful counts, every step taken will help her get out of the hospital faster). I watched her get up (as she was about to cry from all the pain and discomfort) to go to the bathroom to get cleaned up as she was expecting a friend later in the afternoon and wanted to look presentable and wear her new gown... a pink gown with flowers that made her feel prettier and more ‘human.’ Unfortunately, a vomiting spree did not allow her to see her dear friend (this was the second visit she had to cancel this week).

Towards the end of the evening the nurses suspected she might be getting a stomach bug and ordered some additional lab work. The doctor finally hooked her IV back in the evening and gave her all the regular medication (nutritional supplements, pain medicine, antibiotics and anti-nausea) but she was worn out, exhausted and feeling a bit lost and emotional – she misses Chris and Aiden and she is still trying to digest what has happened in the last few months. Her hormones are also out of control  after she lost both her ovaries.

She wants us to keep you guys updated on the good, the bad and the ugly. This is a long process full of surprises and bumps along the road. Yet, regardless of how difficult things can get, she’s still moving forward and she has her eyes on the ‘prize’ which is recovery and many, many more years with her friends and family. She is also extremely thankful to be here and to be getting this treatment that many PMP sufferers don’t have access to. Please take a look to see her touching article which has been featured on the online edition of Maclean’s Magazine as she continues to inspire us:

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

Ups and Down

Apis had a rough day today. Her IV painkiller was switched to oral so she had lots of issues finding the right amount of pain medication and fighting intense nausea. The new (Oxycodon) medicine makes her throw up suddenly (just like during her first stay at RCH and at home).

In addition, her left tube incision is not looking great and could be the source of the elevated blood count (if there is an infection). So, it was cleaned and re-wrapped. As a precaution she continues with more rounds of antibiotics which help in many ways but also upset her stomach. Let's hope we get her pain under control and that she has a decent sleep.
They will be trying hydromorphine later to help with any stomach and nausea complications.

Monday, 18 June 2012

A bit of a setback?

This morning Apis woke up with some pain in her abdomen and when the results of the nightly blood tests returned they found she had elevated white cell count.  We don't know what this means though the doctor this morning said it might mean there is fluid in her chest or abdomen.  They will be taking another CT scan today and if necessary and there is fluid, remove it via a minor procedure.  I'll update this post with more information today as it comes in.

UPDATE: All is well. Without her spleen we'll need to keep an eye on white cell counts.  They did giver her some antibiotics just to be safe, but doubt they'll be necessary. The scans did not show any thing to really worry about, there was a bit of fluid but Dr. T said that its not concerning. He said that she's doing great.

Sunday, 17 June 2012

Great Developments (with pics)

 This post is also brought to you by Ula.
This last week has been full of great developments! As of today, Apis is only left with her pick line for her IV for her nutritional supplements and her pain medication .
It is hard to believe that just 10 days ago she went through this huge surgery (equivalent of 18 procedures) and was in really rough shape/surrounded by tubes. The doctor today stated she is WAY ahead of the curve. We were told to prepare ourselves for a 6-8 week stay before and now she may get released after 3 weeks. We still have to be cautiously optimistic but, as her doctor pointed out, she has a really strong body and AMAZING determination.  Now, we have started thinking about what comes next and wonder what the next phase of the treatment will look like – I am anyways. I’m a planner...  and must admit have a bit of OCD so I can’t help myself... and she gently reminds me to take it one day at a time... such a challenge at times.  She just keeps amazing me with her patience and her calmness.

She continues to push herself and take long walks around the hospital halls ... I heard her say to another patient  yesterday:“let’s go... I’ll race you.. it’s on!!! “  I love how she is joking and trying to cheer up everyone else.

Today, I printed her all your blog comments and I can’t wait to share them with her tomorrow.  She asks about all of you constantly and if there have been any new comments. She also has all her cards and pictures/postcards all over her room and looks at them constantly... they make her smile and give her the extra boost of energy for the walks and for those moments when even super narcotics can’t mask all the pain!!!! 

Valerie and I are keeping her company along with my mom and we have managed to split the shifts and keep her company for much longer than the visiting hours.
It was a great sign when yesterday I walked in to see her and she was seating down and drawing! Just like old times and a sign of what is to come!!!

When she gets tired from this we have been reading to her and she has also been answering some questions from the nurses who are a bit curious about her type of cancer and symptoms...  even some medical students and on-call doctors know very little about this disease.... we are all hoping to change that.
We will keep you updated as she keeps making more progress... please keep praying and sending good energy!!!!

Ps. This is Lovey the Bear (a gift from Aiden) and she hugs him all day..... Doesn’t she look gorgeous here?

Thursday, 14 June 2012


Today's post is from Apis' sister Ula who has been with Apis most of the time since I headed out.

We have seen a great change in Apis in the last 24 hours and especially since her stomach tube came out. She is now able to speak normally and is eager to communicate and even make a joke or two. As far as I know there have not been many hallucinations although she did believe that Sheldon from the Big Bang Theory was in the room, that the nurses were putting on a play for her and that she was witnessing a statue competition from her room – in her opinion the one of the momma bear protecting her baby should win. I agreed that was the best one... how could I not...

Apis has been showing tremendous strength and determination during this process. She is trying to walk and sit as much as possible and is constantly doing her breathing exercises. She doesn’t have to be told to do things... she is doing them on her own and taking control of her recovery so far.  She is being incredibly patient in spite of the constant probing, pricking, awful sweating and incredible amounts of pain. She is focused and fighting to get better and to get home as soon as possible. I saw her first real smile today after she spoke to Aiden (for the first time since he surgery) and Chris. She is fighting for you guys!!!  And she adores you.

We are taking shifts staying at the hospital and before I left she asked me to bring back to her the artwork supplies she brought with her and her comfortable pillow – these are all great signs!!!!  She also started fluids today and I hope soon she will be able to eat a real meal... as real as a hospital meal can be. Dr. Temple said today that Apis is a super patient and that she has amazing lungs, organs, and strength. I couldn’t agree more and hope her recovery continues smoothly and that she is ready to start chemo when she returns.

Aside from her strength (physical and emotional) Apis has great friends and family. We thank you all for keeping her (and us) in your thoughts and prayers. And for the gifts she has received. The first few days were the hardest and Chris was there ALL the time with her and lending his support.  He is still there... in that room.. in her heart and thoughts constantly. Chris you are an amazing husband and father! Apis and Aiden are lucky to have you!!!!  Some of the patients she has shared a room with have had no visitors and the nurses have mentioned Apis is an extremely popular patient as one of us is there constantly (until we get kicked out) and sometimes 2 or 3 family members. We can assure you all that we are doing what we can so that she heals physically and also gets an emotional boost... extended hospital stays can get pretty depressing after a while and we are trying to be as entertaining as we can J

She mentions those in the PMP group often and hopes they are doing as well as they can... never stop hoping for the best is what she says.... I agree 100%

Wednesday, 13 June 2012

The big post (it really is very big)

Okay so you know when I promised a full update when I had the chance. Well I finally figured out that I could write it all down at the hospital while Apis slept and just save it in Evernote till I got home to post it over wifi.  Somhere it is a full hour by hour account of the last four days.  Warning that it is (very) long and at times quite graphic, but my writing is no where near as eloquent as Apis' so it maybe a little dry too.

EDIT: and now that I've got a full computer to write on I can clean this up. And I made it longer...


June 7th
5:15am - arrive at admitting
7:30am - arrive at OR
8:00am - see anesthetist
9:00am - operation begins
10:15am - spoke with Tammy, the liaison nurse and all was okay.
12:15pm - missed call from Tammy but everything was okay. Wish I could have my ringer on, but I held my phone tight for the rest of the day so I wouldn't miss any more calls.
1:30pm - spoke to Dr. T over the phone, surgery was complete and the chemo wash was beginning.
Over the phone he mentioned that her spleen removed but so had all of the tumor. No colostomy bag was required.  Her diaphragm had been operated on to scrape away the tumor. Meet with him at 3 or 4 outside the ICU.
3:15pm - spoke to Tammy, Apis is out of surgery. They will wake her up in OR. Transfer to ICU section B in about 30 minutes.
3:30pm - met Dr. T outside the ICU. The following is point form from my conversation with him.
- 3 weeks in the hospital
- 18 operations preformed
- 2-3 units of blood lost
- ovary and uterus removed
-spleen removed
- bit of kidney removed
- breathing support required
- because diaphragm operated on, stripped away some of it.
- gallbladder removed
- omentum removed
- about 1" of right colon next to where the appendix had been was removed.
- move to unit 102 after ICU
- needs about 2-3 days in ICU
- 4 chemo treatments afterwards in BC to be safe

So overall I was greatly relieved to speak with Dr. T in person. He was very reassuring and it was wonderful to hear that the operation had gone as expected. The list of operations matched the expected ones that he had given us in April and none of the potential bad ones he had warned us about.

4:00pm - Apis was in the ICU and they let me in to see her.
She had the following tubes installed already when I got there:
- NG tube in her nose removing anything in her stomach
- breathing tube in her mouth
- later replaced by an oxygen tube to her nose
- 3 port IV in her chest - used for pain medication, saline, nausea medication, and later a nutritional supplement.
- arterial mainline in her left wrist - use for draw blood and to monitor her blood pressure all the time.
- 4 or 5 (or more?) heart rate sensors all around her chest. EKG?
- finger sensor - monitor O2 and heart rate too.
- 2 chest drains on suction
- 1 abdomen drain into a small sack, called a JP tube
- 1 larger abdomen drain on suction, this one was a JP tube too
- catheter
- IV in left hand for more ports when needed. Sometimes it was used for an extra saline drip.

It was quite hard to see her lying there that first night, almost always completely asleep, with all of those tubes. The hardest was the breathing tube because she kept gagging on it. She needed that one because of the operation on her diaphragm had left her needing the assisted breathing. The ICU staff were phenomenal. She always had a nurse watching her 24hrs a day with 1-2 nurses per patient. There were ICU doctors around lots too.
That evening during the brief periods of lucidity, Apis was able to get across a few things with hand gestures and by spelling letters with her fingers on the palm of my hand. I am terrible at that game, but we were able to communicate a bit.

She wanted to hear how the operation went and what organs had needed operating on. I am pretty sure she didn't remember much of what I told her that night, but I know that it made her feel better hearing it then.

10:00pm - I headed out. It was a long day and if I was going to be any used I needed a bit of sleep myself. Especially since I had flown in at 10:30pm the night before and neither of us slept well.

June 8th
9:00am - arrived back at the ICU, Dr. T had already been and had told the nurses that her recovery was off to a good start.
10:00am - Apis was able to scribble a few words on paper with a pen to communicate pain or nausea or just itchiness. Wish I had kept the stuff she wrote but I forgot to grab it when we left the ICU. She asked again about the operation and wanted to hear about how Aiden was doing and what people had said on her blog and Facebook.
12:00 pm - removed breathing tube and added nose tube for O2 after ICU doctors finally made it around on their rounds.
2:00pm - changed pain management to a patient managed approach with the button. She was still receiving a steady drip though on a smaller dose. She was on Fentenol at the time, which is immediate but short lived pain relief.
3:00pm - physiotherapist came in to give her some breathing exercises to help get her diaphragm moving again and open up the bottom of her lungs.
1) short sharp intakes of breath thru the nose
2) using breathing machine (sperometer?) longer intakes of breath thru mouth
3) cough
4:00pm - short periods of lucidity, difficult to talk because of the soreness in the soreness of the throat. But she was still able to whisper a bit. In the evening she slept lots and in between I read her comments from her blog and Facebook again.
11:00pm - headed out for some rest

Overall it was another very successful day, though it was all small steps I was certainly encouraged by her progress. They had hoped to have her moved over to the unit that day but there were no beds yet. I think it was a good move to keep her there for one more night as the care in the ICU is amazing.
Overnight she had difficulty controlling the pain. There was too much reliance on Apis waking up every 6-10 minutes to activate the button that she wasn't able to sleep much at all. In the night they changed her over to a different medicine called Hydramorphol. It was completely patient managed, but stronger and longer lasting just not quite as immediate. This help a lot over the next couple of days.

June 9th
9:00am - arrived back at the ICU. The nurse said that the bed in unit 102 likely would be ready this morning. He explained the change in pain management. The doctor had already been around to see her. Apis was still completely asleep when I got there.
10:00am - 2 units of type O- blood were delivered and administered. The nurse said that they had been monitoring her hemoglobin count since the surgery and it was still pretty low. Given that she lots 2-3 units of blood during the operation it wasn't much of a surprise. Still to me it felt like a little step backwards, especially as she was still fast asleep. They did remove the arterial mainline though as it was given inaccurate readings on her blood pressure (like 212/85 I think it reached) yet the cuff said it was much more in line (145/75).
11:30am - Apis woke up and was more lucid than the past couple of days. We practiced her breathing exercises and spoke about the changes in the night.
12:00pm - she was back asleep again, but it was good to be able to talk normally with her. Relieving my feelings that things were a little bit of a downer that morning.
2:00pm - room in 102 ready. They disconnected the EKG monitors and the wrist IV.
3:00pm - headed to 102 to the high observation room where there were 4 patients to a room.
4:00pm - all set up in 102, the tubes were down to:
- NG tube
- oxygen
- 3 port IV in chest but that was down to two lines being used for saline, nutritional supplement, and pain (upon her button push)
- 2 chest drains
- 1 abdomen pump
- 1 other abdomen drain which was changed from suction to a pump
- and the catheter.
5:00pm - they changed the dressings on the main incision and I was able to see what it looked like for the first time. The skin along the nice neat line is slowly healing back together and there are staples all the way along so it looks like a big zipper.
8:30pm - I went to dinner as I was getting a bit hungry. It had been a great day getting moved over but that wasn't the biggest development of the day.
9:00pm - when I got back to the room, she was sitting up on the side of the bed. Then she stood up with the support of the nurses. And then she started walking in place! Just amazing how she managed to be mobile about 72hrs after getting out of her major operation.
10:30pm - her parents paid her a short visit. It was a very emotional time for them as it was the first time they got to see their daughter after dropping us off early Thursday morning. We only spent 15 minutes or so with Apis as the rest of her room mates were already asleep.
11:15pm - i headed out with her parents for some rest.

What a momentous day. I was extremely proud of how much Apis accomplished. She is definitely motivated to recover as quick as she can.

June 10th
8:00am - arrived at unit 102 a bit earlier today to see if I could catch the doctor.
8:30am - Dr. H came in to visit, so I had made it early enough. She explained that they had conducted some tests over night as Apis had been feeling pressure on her chest again in the night. All of the tests were positive. I asked about milestones from here and she explained that some of the other tubes would come out in the next 4-5 days as the drains stopped getting much out and the NG tube was not as necessary.
9:00am - Apis had another rest for a bit.
10:00am - she woke up and did her breathing exercises. She is having more frequent and longer periods of lucidity and we can carry on fully conversations.
10:30am - she tried out a breathing machine called a nebulizer to help loosen congestion in her lungs
11:20am - she got up out of bed again, this time to go to the washroom to get washed and refreshed. She felt good but exhausted after that. She fell right asleep once she was back in her bed.
12:30pm - Ula joined me at the hospital to see Apis
5:30pm - Apis had a big coughing fit and expelled a lot of congestion from her lungs, which the nurses were very excited about. It was kind of like when a new born is at the hospital and the nurses there are over joyed at the first meconium. It feels genuine and some how not entirely real at the same time.
7:30pm - Apis stood up again and marched in place. She got to take several large deep breaths while standing which is apparently ideal for opening up the lungs.
10:30pm - I headed back to Ula's for some rest.

Overall the day had another couple of great milestones achieved and definite progress is being made. Apis is starting to wonder if this really is progress, but I've reassured her that what may seem like small steps now, are actually pushing her forward at great strides towards recovery.

June 11th
As mentioned in my brief update Apis got up around 9:00am on this day and walked around. She walked with assistance all the way to the bathroom in the high observation room.  There she got a bit of a refresher (brushing teeth at the sink, brushing her hair, etc) which was nice for her. I had tried to get there by 8:00am (which I did) to meet Dr. T. But it turned out that he had been by at 7:55am and then was tied up in a surgery all day.  Dr. H came by though (she was the one we met at the consultation) and had lots of great things to say and answered a lot of our questions.

When they brought her back they had her sit in a big comfy chair for 15 minutes to help sit up some more.  She was pretty tired after that so she climbed back into bed and had a good snooze.

Around 3pm (while I was out grabbing lunch at Ula's for a bit and Apis' father was with her) they moved Apis to a semi-private room.  With only two beds it had a bit more room in it.  The other patient in the room was released shortly afterwards so by the time I got back at around 6pm I think it was, she had the room to herself.  It was nice and peaceful though there was a lot of activity and the nurse was a bit harried at the end of her shift.  Things calmed down quite a bit when the night nurse came on duty.

I headed out at 11:00pm hoping that Apis would have a good night sleep with the silence of an empty room (other than the nurse checking vitals every hour and the blood work conducted at like 3am in the morning every day... I didn't know that till we were over in the semi-private room).

June 12th
Sorry I missed the update for the 12th, it was the day that I had to fly back to Vancouver so it was an emotional and tiring one.

I aimed to get to the hospital by 7:45am to catch Dr. T. And again I missed him.  I didn't really have any new questions for him, I was just looking forward to catching him before I headed out. Apis had had a bit of a rough night. There was a new patient beside her, brought in by the ER people for something about his stomach or hernias or something I didn't catch it all. In any case there was much hustle and bustle in the middle of the night so it was hard to sleep. It also took some getting used to being in a room where the nurses had more people to watch over so less time with each patient.

Apis did have more great progress on Tuesday. Her JP tubes were removed in the morning.  I guess they had finished sucking out all the remaining chemo medicines and could be closed up.

She also managed to get up and walk out to the nurses station, mostly unaided though myself and the student nurse were right beside her. She was able to get another refresher in the bathroom and did lots of her breathing exercises.

Dr. T did come around again in the mid morning.  He said that her surgery was a success and that she was doing exceptionally well in her recover, better than most I think he said.

I had to head out at 2pm to catch my flight back to Vancouver.  We had decided earlier in June that it would be best to spend time helping my son cope here by having him maintain his routines with school and baseball.  It was really hard to leave that hotel room.  I felt that I was an instrumental part of her recovery and needed to be there too.  I'm very glad that her family was all around her too to help make that a bit easier.

She had a good evening with her sister and got to walk some more and had some medication for nausea as well which always worked when that crept up.

June 13th
Today started off with a difficult text from her sister.  Apparently the night had been a really rough one as Apis had struggled to get the attention of the nurses.  Her sister worked with the nurses and I think came to a resolution. I believe it involved clamping the call button close to her hand so that it wouldn't get away from her.

But the day progressed a lot better than the night.  As early as 9am they were in and had removed the catheter.  That got her up and walking to use the bathroom. They also clamped her NG tube, meaning it wouldn't suck anything more out of her stomach.  She had some x-rays and got cleaned up.

By my count that leaves her with:
- 2 chest tube drains
- mainline with the 3 IV ports in her chest
- oxygen nose tube
and that's it.

Sounds like she was even cracking jokes around noon after some more rest. She had needed some more Benadryl for itchiness. In the afternoon she made a big lap around the unit and then at around 4pm she had the NG tube removed.  That tube was probably the most difficult one to deal with (after the breathing tube of course).  She was super happy to have it out.  She took some pictures with her folks and her spirits have been really high in the afternoon.  Her mom stayed with her for the rest of the evening.

I really hope that she has a much better night tonight.

Tuesday, 12 June 2012

Private(ish) room

Another quick one for tonight (actually Im writting this quickly the next morning). Apis was up and walking Monday morning. She walked all the way to the bathroom for another refresh. Then she got to sit in a big comfy chair for a little bit. In the afternoon she was moved to a semi-private room. But there was nobody else assigned to the room at least when I left at night. Im sure there will be some one there today though.

Sunday, 10 June 2012

Brief post

I wrote an amazingly long post today and when I went to publish it, the post was all in one long paragraph. All like 10 pages of it!? Dont know if its Blogger or the iPad but the big post will have to wait till I can clean it up. Today was a good day too, Apis stood up a couple of times and did a lot of breathing exercises. All of the nurses and doctors that came by said that she was progrssing really well.

Saturday, 9 June 2012


Today was another big day for Apis. In the afternoon we were moved out of the ICU to the surgical oncology unit in a high observation room. While the unit is not as nice as the really new ICU at Foothills, it really did feel like a promotion. Being there meant that she had progressed enough to breathe on her own (with a bit of oxygen but still). It also meant that while she needed lots of attention she did not need the dedicated one on one 24hr care that she was getting in the ICU. Happy enough with the day I had a late dinner and came back to find that the nurses had helped her sit up on the side of the bed. Wow! Then she insisted on standing and trying a couple of tentative steps in place. Crazy how much progress she is making every day. I know I've promised a longer account of things and for the PMP community it is important to share these stories, know that it is coming. I am keeping an hour by hour account of her time there, but Im getting in really late and only have the iPad to type with. So its coming but not tonight. Thanks for all your wonderful prayers and wishes, I read them to Apis every day and she is always warmed by your kindness. Chris

Friday, 8 June 2012

Another good day

Today was another good day. Apis' breathing tube was removed in the morning and they changed her pain management to a patient managed approach with a button. She is still in the ICU over night but the doctors and nurses are hopeful that she will be "promoted", as one of them put it, to a bed in Dr. Ts ward. Sorry for another brief update, I'm tired, but I promise that I will soon update you with a more thorough description and chronology of the surgery day onwards.

Thursday, 7 June 2012


This is Chris, Apis' husband. Thank you all for the well wishes and prayers today. Apis' surgery was successful today. The doctor was able to remove all of the tumor. I'll post a more complete report maybe tomorrow, but know that all went as planned and now Apis is going to be recovering from her sugery over the next few weeks.

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

Surgery Tomorrow!

Home after tests and prep. Surgery is tomorrow at 7:30am, so we have to be in the hospital for 5:30am. So happy that Chris gets in tonight. Not ready to hop on the Tardis yet, so onwards to getting rid of the jelly. GAMBARIMASU!!!!!!!

Monday, 4 June 2012

Sunflowers and Blessings

I'm in Calgary now, having had my blood tests this morning. Ekg and other tests will be on wednesday, the day before my surgery. How can it only be a couple of days now? Pain is manageable, but the nausea is nasty and my allergies are having a field day. I sneeze, mynose itches and i have the ocassional dry cough; i cant take anything for them though, so I really hope they arent something that may impact my surgery date, bleh. Two more days!! How can it be so close? I am exhausted, so sleeping every chance I get. I can't wait to get this thing out of my body. I am so blessed though, in the people near and far that help and support, that have me in their thiughts and prayers. My sisters new home in Calgary is lovely and bright, and being surrounded by th giggles of her twins is amazing. I miss my aiden thoug... I can't imagine being away from him these first few weeks. My parente are being wonderfully supportive, and I feel surrounded with love everywhere I look. Calgary is green, and full of trees! It bloomed inthe month we were away, and its so beautiful to see it. I wonder how my tomatoes are doing back home... Last night I dreamt of two friends who were picking me up and driving me to this field full of gigantic sunflowers just beyond a hedge. It was a nice dream! Maybe I'll dream of sunflowers while I'm under?